Untuk Ketua KOMAHI yang baru,
I’d like to congratulate you for going
through all the phases of the succession with high spirit and enthusiasm and I
see that you, whichever you are, have been faithful in holding on the values
you’re adhering to. You’ve offered us something we have not seen in the past
year.
First of all, I’d like to offer my apology
for neither being dedicated nor consistent enough that you want to prove that
someone can be much more dedicated and bring changes to this KOMAHI of ours. I
deeply regret that I was not able to listen to all the voices for KOMAHI that
you both want to renew the commitment of delivering programs favored by the
members. I’m sorry because I was not able to represent what people want. I can
assure you that I did try my best, but to no avail, I guess. Having said that,
I want you to know that you, whichever you are, have my full support. Let’s
make peace and get over all the criticism I wrote previously. Maybe it was just
because I resent that you could spot where I did wrong and even offer
betterment. I may be just an envious person. I may just be afraid that you can
do better than me and people will start comparing me and you, concluding that
you bring much improvement. I assume it is quite normal and acceptable as a normal human being to feel
that way. I’m sorry.
You might have hoped for the worst before
the disclosure of the result, but believe me, the worst part is to win the
election. However, this is a position not everyone can be responsible of, and
now you can find yourself in it, meaning you fit the best for the job.
Having said all that, let me leave you with
some advice that I hope can help you go through your service next year.
First, set yourself free from any kind of
anxiety. You have everything any ketua KOMAHI ever wished for: enthusiastic freshman
students, a team of more supportive and caring lecturers, loyal friends,
healthy financial condition of KOMAHI, and of course funds to fix the
secretariat. You have everything so better get the best out of these. I myself
believe that next year will be bright for you and KOMAHI that you serve. Maintain
and improve relations with everyone and you’ll be happy to find yourself in no
pressure, especially the financial one. So, take your time with your team to
plan everything perfectly.
Secondly, leadership is a crucial aspect
and you are, from this moment, a role model. Of course we may still lack the
experience that we also need our own role model. Don’t bar yourself from ‘copying’
the style of your favourite politicians, be it Jokowi, Obama, Sadiq Khan,
Jeremy Corbyn, Justin Trudeau, or even Trump and Farage if you like. But always
keep in mind that you have to look no further than Him. Any leader can show you
charisma, tact, intelligence, wisdom, or any other values. But no one can show
better compassion and love. No one else but Him. Don’t let yourself away from
Him, but be close to Him. No leader can be better in showing selflessness and
willingness to sacrifice than Him. Today, you have to know that the year 2017,
you will not fully own your life. You will live for others, for the betterment
of all members of this beloved organization. Accept it as a part of your life
and love it. Cherish every moment and give your all, as He gave His all to us.
You can admire any leader, but above all, be like Him.
Thirdly, don’t be like me. I concede to the
fact that I made neither a good leader nor example. I was overconfident and now
I let myself down. I am one person who is never good enough in anything, who
never lives life to the fullest, who always fail to give the best effort. So
don’t be like me.
You will need to surround yourself with the
best friends and make sure that you have mutual trust with each of them. By
friends, in this context and particularly for you, I mean the closest persons you’ll be working with: BPH. Be someone to
whom people can pay respect. Be a friend who can listen, who is acceptable to
each of them. Be someone who knows little details about them. Be someone who
knows their taste of humor. Be someone who knows the right thing to do in the
right time. Be someone who deserves to be treated fairly.
I have always blamed others for the
situations I am in. I chose the ones I can trust, the ones I always regard
friends. However, I thought that I got snubbed, ignored, and treated unfairly by some of these friends. During your the debate, I was actually quite offended when both of you
said I was not dedicated enough and I was not able to work professionally by
putting aside personal problems for the sake of the KOMAHI's programs. At
that time, I thought to myself that I have always loved this organization with
all my heart and soul, which I thought was manifest enough in my availability. I
thought I was a person who does not mind tackling little details directly. I
also thought to myself that I have always tried hard to put up with friends who
snub me, who reject me, who ignore me without telling why. Can you just imagine getting ignored and rejected while you yourself don't know whether you do anything wrong? Can
you feel how it feels when being told “nothing, I just don’t want to see you”
when you try to solve the problems? Can you imagine how it feels when you were
just trying to have fun with one of your perceived close friends but they end up being angry, and when someone else do the same thing to them, they choose not to get
angry? I have humiliated and beat the shit out of these persons more than 100x,
but only in my mind because I was also angry. I just hold myself back from showing it. I wouldn’t have done this if it weren’t for the sake of
KOMAHI’s programs. I have always put up with such things and you said I was not
professional enough.
But after days of thinking, I conclude that
the problem is me. I’d like to think I’m dedicated enough, but I did not manage
to attend and give attention to every departments of KOMAHI. I even ignored one
of them, (I’d be honest here) Sosmas. I was not present in every department’s
meeting, I was just not really there when they need me. I may think I love this organization,
but it was never enough.
I conclude the problem is me, not them. I
did not know their details, I got reminded by facebook about their birthdays, I
did not really understand their taste of jokes, and I am simply a person who
does not deserve being respected. I don’t know what to do or say in different
situations. I did not do enough effort to bond with them. I tried, once or twice
but it is by no means enough. I give up too early when initially I was being
overconfident and narcissistic. I may not seem to have enough ability or the right
character to lead. But above all, I am not a good friend to them. I have no one to blame but myself.
Don’t be like me. Be there, be physically
there especially when they need you the most. Be a good friend, know your
friends by heart, make them your new family. Don’t fail like I did, don’t let
yourself down.
Fourth, as I said earlier, it’s a service
in which you have to give your all and you will live for others. Do it with
heart and be strong. At times you will feel that you’re alone. It’s normal
because it’s your duty to support, push, and care for them. That is why it is
important to surround yourself with friends, but above all, be a good friend. I
myself have surrounded myself with good friends, but I was never a good friend for them.
I think that is all. Be worry-free, be like
Him, don’t be like me, and be strong. Live your life as the new Ketua KOMAHI to
the fullest. Don’t let anyone down, don’t let yourself down. Be a ketua KOMAHI
who will regret nothing at the end of your service. Be a ketua KOMAHI that will
never say “could have” and “should have”. You are the best that we have and we
leave our hopes on you. It’s hard, but be a good person so you won’t feel
alone.
Beside all that I said above, I will be
glad if you can do me a favour.
If
we want a KOMAHI that works for everyone, that is present for everyone, it will
be a blunder to leave all the hard work to KOMAHI to elicit our loyalty and
attention. Things should be mutual and reciprocal because it's simply the righ thing. I may not have done enough
effort during my service. But nothing would change if everyone ignores KOMAHI.
We, IR students, members of KOMAHI, should start pay attention to KOMAHI. We all
need to acknowledge that it is present and inherent in our life as IR students.
Look at your korsa and there’s the badge of KOMAHI. It’s symbolical, I know.
But KOMAHI is in my vein. It’s in yours too. It's there for us, for good. Nothing will change unless we
start changing our mindset on KOMAHI.
Please do me a favour by telling all KOMAHI
members, all IR students, that we should treat KOMAHI better. Let’s be mutual
for the betterment of all. You, the new ketua KOMAHI, need to make us
understand that nothing will change unless we work together, unless we pay
attention to each other.
I’d like to wish you all the best of luck.
I’ll have you know that I’ll be there if you need anything. This will not be
easy, but you have the capacity. Be good, be loving. Don’t let yourself down.
Ini KOMAHI kita.